Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Our Little Man



His smile is our sunshine
His blue eyes like the sea
His laughter like medicine
The cure to anything
He possesses a joy
That is completely innocent
And a presence as big as the moon
He is growing so fast now
We couldn’t slow him down if we wanted too
He is this amazing blessing
I can’t begin to describe
And when he lays his head on my shoulder
I wish he’d stay there the rest of his life
The day he came into this world
I knew our lives had changed
And when I looked into his mothers eyes
I knew she felt the same
She held him so closely to her chest
And kissed him softly on his nose
She quietly examined his hands and feet
To make sure he had all his fingers and toes
We knew this boy was special
Because he belonged only to us
We knew that we were lucky
And he knew that he was loved
Now he runs around us in circles
And keeps us on our toes
He loves watching ninja turtles
And yelling yo ho ho
From baby to boy in an instant
Riddled with dirt and grime
He raises hell and causes trouble
And talks non-stop all the time
Never a dull moment
When we’re with our little man
He can do no wrong and is instantly forgiven
When he flashes that toothy grin
We look to heaven every single day
And thank the Lord above
That he gave us this absolutely perfect gift
Our little boy to love

-Promise-


-Letting Go-



When do you give up
When do you say goodbye
When you love someone so much
And you don’t understand why
When do you accept it
When do you let go
When do you move forward
When do you lose hope

For so long you’ve loved them
Still always on your mind
The pain isn’t easing
Not even with time
You just want to see them
To hear their voice
Yet you get nothing
You don’t get a choice
You wait and you wonder
When will they care
But the silence is deafening
There’s nobody there
Your mind is your enemy
When you can’t get them out of your head
Your heart has an aching
What more can be said
It’s a fight to the finish
With no end in sight
You can hope and wish
With all of your might
But you have no control
You have no command
You have to let go
And find a way to mend

Friday, May 16, 2014

-A Mothers Love-


The softest whimper, a quiet call

The father sleeps but she heard it all

She waits and she listens, he could be in dreams

It’s 2 in the morning but that doesn’t mean anything

Again through the speaker the infants cry

She wakes from her slumber no hesitation this time

She makes her way down the hall to the little ones door

She opens it carefully not to awaken him more

The slightest whine of the hinges, and he opens his eyes

He sits up in his bed, his arms stretched to sky

She reaches down to grab him then cradles his head

She takes a seat to rock him in the chair by his bed

As she sings to him softly a sweet sleepy tune

She smiles as she stares at him by the light of the moon

The most beautiful creature she has ever seen

Her love for him grows bigger every moment it seems

Her arms wrapped around him, his ear to her chest

The thumping of her heartbeat is the sound he sleeps to best

She strokes his soft hair and kisses his tiny cheek

Loving every moment even though she’s losing sleep

She lays her head back, and slowly closes her eyes

She’ll cherish every extra second that she get with him tonight

The rocking takes its toll as she drifts off to dreams

Holding ever tightly to her precious little king

She’s awakened by the sunlight as it peeks through the shade

She’s peers down at her angel, still quietly dreaming away

She walks to his crib side and softly places him in

She puts her hand to his cheek again while taking it all in

She whispers “I love you little man” as she smiles

She walks back to her bedroom off to rest for a while

She crawls under the covers and pulls them up tight

Rest her head on her pillow and closes her eyes

Then just as she’s starting to drift off to sleep

Again those little whimpers from the speaker start to creep

-My Everything-


You are the one I love 

You are the one I need
You are the only one I want

You are my everything

Your smile makes me crazy

Your laughter makes my day

The way you stare at Jake with a mother’s love
Is so beautiful in so many ways

The scent that follows behind you 

Is enough to make me sweat! 

And the way that you look in everything and nothing
Leaves my jaw on the floor to collect 

When you are away I can’t wait to hear from you

Even if it’s just to check on our son

The way I can’t wait to see your face at the end of the day 

Reminds me that you are the one 

For me loving you is easy
Even when you make it hard

And even when you hurt my heart so deeply
I still want to be wherever you are

I promised you forever

And I meant a lifetime and more

And when I placed that ring on your finger

I knew I’d found what I’d been searching for

Each day that I have you is a blessing

A blessing I may not deserve

The way that you affect me is mesmerizing

It goes so much deeper than that four letter word

I want nothing more than to grow old with you

To watch our son live out his life
I want every day just to hold you

And to thank you for being my wife

To celebrate with you in your achievements

And to pick you back up if you fall

To listen and learn as I grow with you

I want that more than anything at all

I believe in you more than you’ll ever know

And adore you even more than words can say

I place atop such a pedestal in my heart

That I feel like you are too far away

I’m the man that’s stood beside you for this long

And hopes to stand beside you ever more

I’m the man that would lay down my life for you

And upon death would love you even more than before

-The Promise-


I will fight until there is no fight left

I will stand tall in the storm because that is for the best

I will hold on tightly to everything that I love

I will find inner strength through never giving up

I will love unconditionally even if it hurts

I will make every effort hoping that it works

I will bite back any anger and silence negative thoughts
I will hold true to my promise because losing is the cost

I will show you I am sturdy I will show you I am kind

I will show you that I love you more today than any time

I will be there when you need me

When you don’t I’ll let you be
I will wait for you because I love you

I will hope that you choose me

I will listen when you’re talking

I will cherish every word

I will be your lasting partner

And you’ll know that you are heard

I will tell you that you are beautiful

Because it’s what I see

I will tell you that you are special

Because you are very special to me

I will hold you if you let me

I will kiss you if I can

I will pray that you will want me

Because I just want to be your man

I will learn to be receptive

I will learn when to let things go

I will learn to leave behind jealousy

I will trust you even more than you know

I will show you I am changing

I will surprise you with who I become

I will do this because you are worth it

And I don’t believe in giving up

I will remain a great father and husband

I will learn everything that you need

I will not always be perfect I know this

But I hope you will help me to see

I will temper frustration and anger

I will find better ways to react

I will learn when it’s time to stop talking

To keep my relationship in tact

I know deep inside I can do this

Because you hold the other half of my heart

To have you forever is my prayer

This promise I hope is a start

-The End-


I guess it’s time to say goodbye

The love we had has passed us by

I still hold on, but you’ve let go

Why you don’t want me, I’ll never know

I hoped and hoped and hoped some more

You’ve walked away, you’ve closed the door

You’ve no more words, nothing to say

You’d rather ignore me, then see my face

My text go nowhere, my words mean nothing

I wish you’d respond, just give me something

I search for signs that you still care

But you give me nothing, there’s nothing there

You’re as cold as ice on a winter’s day

You’re heart is empty, you’re so far away

An understanding I’ll never have

Where did we go wrong, what made you do that?

I’ll never know, I’ll never see

What took your heart away from me

I can only wonder and wish I knew

I can only sit here missing you

My life has changed, now that your gone

I have to get up and somehow move on

This is the last call, no love to mend

The curtain is closing, this is the end

-Chasing Chances-


And so we begin…

 

7 years since you came into my life

7 years since something felt right

To have you close and get to hold you

To kiss your lips and get to know you

I can’t believe it, even today

I never thought I’d see this fate

The girl I’ve long for, so many years

The girl I’ve thought of is now right here

That smile that frames your beautiful face

That laugh I love, God you are great

The way you look at me, drives me insane

Every moment with you I am blown away

You smell like heaven and look like a dream

I get lost in your presence so surreal it all seems

Like a gift I’ve been given that I never expected

You are amazing, you put happiness into perspective

I cherish every moment I have gotten with you

I can’t wait for more, these words hold true

You are so special, so caring and kind

You are incredible, you are devine

I miss you every second that you are away

I still can’t explain it, but this feeling is great

So as we begin, and see where this goes

All of these things I want you to know:

I will do my best to make you smile

I will give you attention and make you feel worthwhile

I will hold you close and love every minute

I will appreciate you so much because you deserve it

I look forward to tomorrow and what we may be

For whatever we become I can’t wait to see

-Used To Be-


 
Your voice used to grace my ears
Your eyes used to look into mine
I used to see your smile everyday
I used to join you at bed time
We used to talk about everything
We used to say goodbye with a kiss
We used to hold hands when we walked
These are the moments I miss
We used to go out to dinner
And we used to leave together
We used to have so much fun
Back when our lives were tethered
You used to like to hear me sing
You used to laugh at my jokes
You used to ready my poetry
And now you won’t
You used to want me to touch you
You used to believe in our dream
You used to think I was amazing
Not so much now it seems
You used to be my wife
You used to be my world
You used to be my everything
And now you’re just a girl